JoAnne's Disney Academy

You're the best thing ever happened to me!!

2010-07-29T15:56:00.001+08:00

Saw this song from a friend's blog. Felt that its very meaningful.
Dedicated to that 'You' that u know u r the best thing ever happened
to me.. Thks.

You're the best thing ever happened to me!!

I never thought
I'd ever need someone
As much as I need you
You brighten my day in every way,
you make My life feel so brand new
And every time
I think about the way
You make me feel inside
I get a great feeling, the kinda great feeling
You get when you're full of pride
And it all happened at one moment in time
When I realized the greatest gift was mine and

Chorus: You, you're the best thing that ever happened to me
It's definitely you
I want you to forever stay with me,
don't go away
You've made it real easy to see that
You're the best thing that ever happened to me

In my life there are many things that
Bring me up and bring me down
And if I looked all over the world
I don't think I could ever have found
Someone who makes my life worth living
Makes the rainy day seem bright
This is the strongest feeling
I've felt 'Cause in my heart,
I know it is right
And if you ever left me now
Don't know how I'd go on
I'd do anything that I can somehow
To keep this going on strong

Sent from my iPhone

Meaningful phrase from a dear friend

2010-07-08T17:49:00.001+08:00

Behind your smile, I know there are sorrows.
Behind your laughters, I know there are tears.
But I want you to know that, behind you is me who always care for you.

Life without a purpose

2010-05-02T01:12:00.001+08:00

What is the meaning of life without a purpose?? For now, i still have a purpose because my aim is to attain my degree in shipping course. Sometimes, when i am really free and have nothing to ponder upon, i will start thinking – what am i gonna do after i have gotten my degree?? What else can i do??

I dun dislike my current life which most of my days are occupied by doing assignments, meeting with friends for dinner or drinks, watching movies when there are good shows etc. However, they dun seem to satisfy me alot. What exactly am i looking for? What will really give me real satisfaction?? What i mean is i seriously feel happy whenever i am out with friends etc, but they dun give real satisfaction. How??!!

I know!! Look for something else which i like to do and proceed?? Thats easy to say..haha.. i often get these from friends but what exactly do i really like to do?? No one even me can answer this question at times. whahhahaha Thats the irony of life. :(

Karaoke!!

2010-04-20T08:13:00.001+08:00

Been goin to karaoke quite often, like 5 times in 2 wks. Be it karaoke
pub or the Kbox style. I have been complaining that I have no kaki to
go with, then out of no where different groups of pple just jio me
within these 2 wks.

Thanks to all my friends that my Chinese songs list is updated as I
havnt been listening to them for sometime. I realised I really love
singing and listening to others sing. Maybe because I watched too much
星光大道, I become a 'judge' whenever I hear myself and others sing.
Will criticise and comment like as if I m the judge. Whahahahahaha. So
fun.

But somehow, I kinda lost a Ktv kaki for now. It's him. We used to
love going Ktv that the 2 of us can just go alone, or even just with
his sister, who loves to sing too. Record singing time is from 12mn to
5am!! It's not the no. of hours, rather it's the kinda of time we
went. hahahaha. Can't wait to see if I ever have chance to go again
with him....

Feeling nonchalant??

2010-04-02T17:03:00.001+08:00

Dunno wat to write in my blog anymore.. Isit a problem? There seems to
be alot on my mind but when I really sit down n wanna put them in
words, I dun even know what I wanna write.

Is that a problem somewhere? Recently got a lethargic feeling somehow.
There are a lot of places which I know I wanna go, but when asked by
frens where, no whr came to mind. I used to wanna go alot of places
with him, can talk abt them non-stop till he say I can ji ji cha cha
talk non stop. hahaha. I missed the funny rubbish jokes he used to
tell me. I can laugh almost at anything he say. I am not
'entertaining' him, but i really feel it's funny lor.

Just went to my fav liang court basement curry house with frens last
wk. The feeling is so familiar yet distant at the same time. Dunno wat
to order, no one to give suggestion, realised I am no craving for
eating at all. Went ti ramen shop is also same for me. The food I love
most in the past just doesn't seem so appealing anymore.

Am I losing interests in everything around me? Even mj, I can say I m
not very interested anymore. I play cos i Noe I hav pple ard me, not
so much in the game. Will this nonchalant feeling passed soon?

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Comparison and alternative

2010-03-24T21:41:00.001+08:00

I love the seriousness on one's look when he is engaged in some deep
thinking. But do I love everyone's or jus his? Looking at another one
now, but somehow the feeling is very different even when the time,
purpose, venue seem to be the same.

I came to one conclusion: there is no alternative when it comes to the
person u love. No matter how similar the new one is, he can never
replace the original one. I can only fall in love again after I can
stop comparing him with any new guys I know. I have to stop
benchmarking him, then only can I start to fall in love again. But
will that day come soon, or even come? Am i willing to let go?
Sigh..........

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Assignments – making me sad

2010-03-21T14:54:00.001+08:00

I am struggling with my assignments now yet i cant help but thought of him. Hahahha.

He used to help me soooo much in my assignments. Giving me ideas, editing my languages, accompanying me at East Coast Mac whenever its nearing the submission date etc…

Now even if i am going to east coast mac, it will only be me alone. Feeling sad not becos i have to go thr alone (as i have done tat before), feeling sad cos he is not goin to be with me in all my future involvement in anything.

I think there isnt anything which i did don’t involve him in one way or the other, which precisely makes things so difficult for me when things ended. There are really alot of getting used to. I am trying quite hard, trying to divert all my attention used to think of him by going out alot with friends, arranging meet ups with friends i have not seen for long time (fulfilling my new year resolution).

However, whenever i reached home and being alone. The sadness will set in. I know i am pessimistic and emo, really trying hard to change all these. I REALLY NEED TIME!! And i dun appreciate pple ard me who only know how to FORCE you to get over, move on like its as easy as changing clothes.

Vivid dreams

2010-03-19T08:09:00.001+08:00

Recently I kept dreaming abt fang and her kid, Kacia, whom I hav yet
to meet. I even dream of her giving birth when she is in hospital
giving birth. Yesterday, dreamt of Ray and her needing to check in one
hotel fr some function or soemthing equivalent. I tagged along to look
after Kacia.

I am curious whether this bonding between me and Kacia is pre-destined
or becos like what Jess said 'preggy around us giving us pressure'.
That I really dunno. Whichever it is, I seem to have some sort of
bonding with this kid. Haha. Shall go visit her once I done with my
assignment, which I have yet to start.

I am still waiting for colleague to bring me to the fortune teller she
deemed as good. Wishes to check out my love life and see if thr is
really any Mr Right for me aft so many relationships. Really tired of
getting dumped and having to go through the sadness. Think I am really
old le. Not sure if I can bear another of such sadness anymore. :(

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Logical vs emotional feelings

2010-03-15T13:46:00.002+08:00

What are these? Which gives u more accurate answers? I was told that there is no right or wrong in the love world. I agree and disagree. It all depends on whether u r using ur logical feelings or emotional feelings. It supported the no right or wrong theory as it's all about
perspectives.

Majority doing action A doesn't deem this action as a right action, it only means it was more accepted by the public. Therefore, should we always go with the flow? Not going with the flow does that makes us a weirdo? What do think?

So end of the day, who can tell u what us right or wrong? I realised no one but urself.. Therefore, do what u deemed is right and do not regret abt it.

Day 8

2010-03-06T10:09:00.002+08:00

Day 8: home sweet home day. However flight won't be till noon from
cairns to Darwin and will reach sg from Darwin at least aft 9plus at
nite.
Mixed feelings. Can't wait to go home but yet going home means reality
will set in, which will mean the nitemare I wanted to wake up badly
will just con'd. What can I do to make life easier other than asking
me to move on?What if moving on w/out him isn't how I wan my life to
be? What if I wanna move on but not w/out him? So frustrating! So
contradicting! And just so lost w/out him, kinda aimless too. Not the
goal-less kinda aimless, just quite lost in the sense that my life in
future is w/out a purpose.
Now at cairns airport after returning car. Waiting for bus to tranfer
us to the airport.
Reached airport. With only $4 left (yes, both of us add together), we
can only afford a piece of fish w/out chips. Hahaha. We spent all our
money today on pumping some more petrol and tats it.
Later at Darwin, we dun even have money to buy drinks. But it's ok, we
will be going for hotpot the moment i reached sg!! Looking forward to
it. Aft that, go hme bathe, rest and may have to mit up with a fren as
he is in need. Hope to have a good flight back.

Day 4

2010-03-06T10:08:00.011+08:00

Day 4: Today woke up early at 6plus and got ready to go to the Great
Barrier Reef. But it was such a disappointment. Not that the reef is
not nice, but after 2.5hrs of travelling in a boat to the reef area, I
was already having sea sick. I feel quite useless, seeing others with
no prob to anything yet I am here having seasick just after a boat trip.
The whole duration whr the boat jus anchor at one spot for us to go
snorkelling, I just sit at my place trying hard to doze off so that I
won't have the retching feeling. I didn't even manage to have my lunch
on board. Total vomitted 3 times on board. Tsk tsk tsk!! Useless
Joanne. Disappointing day.

Day 5

2010-03-06T10:08:00.010+08:00

Day 5: today is such an early day!! We woke up at 315am (i.e. Sg
115am!). I havnt even reached home back in sg. Haha. We are goin to
take hot air balloon this morning, after which sky rail (which is
cable car in sg context) and a train ride back to cairns city.
Hot air balloon is a different concept from what we have in sg. They
actually move from place to place. But that is not is the onli
difference. We were 'trapped' in a basket container and movements and
space are restricted. Then the person next to me is pple from my 'fav'
country!! Y do I have to bump into them even here?! I was ok with them
initially till one of them squeezing to our side to take pic for the
other and keep knocking into me!! Goddamn it! Don't they have eyes or
feelings that they bumped into others?! I was so pissed that I told
them off. Rest of the flight was quite pleasant with nice view, then
followed by nice breakfast.
The skyride up to Kuranda was ok too, however, the markets at Kuranda
was very boring. Not much selection or it's at super high prices, all
out to chop Roberts. End up we didn't even buy anything. The train
ride back to cairns city was kinda boring except for a few areas.
Basically it makes up our whole journey and it ended at only 345pm.
Since the railway station is near to shopping mall, decided to go to
the supermarket to grab more water and other stuff.
Went back to the hotel to grab the car then we r on our way to Mission
Beach, a place abt 2 hrs from cairns city. However, it was kinda
disappointing when I reached. Very backpacker style, to the extent
they dun even provide towels in rooms. So decided not to stay here for
another nite and will drive back to cairns city aft the river rafting
tmr. Maybe tired but not going to stay here any longer than I should.
Looking for other place to suntan on our last day. Hee. No snorkelling
but still should tan a bit rite? Hee.

Day 6

2010-03-06T10:08:00.009+08:00

Day 6: getting ready to leave hotel now. Won't be staying another nite
here. driving back to cairns straight after the Tully white water
rafting. Ummm. If I dun get river sick this time... :p
River rafting was fun!!! Was still worried that I may get river sick
or some sorts, it was totally awesome!! Six in a raft with a guide to
go with us. We were matched with two other couples, one fr Germany,
the other England. The driver drove quite a distance to reach the
start of the river to start our rafting trip. There were abt ten other
rafts with us.
One of the last few rapids include a jump from a big boulder
*splash*!! It's about 5-7m fr the water surface. As I climb onto the
rock, i told myself that I have to jump, however the moment I stepped
onto the jumping spot I can't make it at all. End up I chose not to
jump. Then I start thinking back, if I m here with him, he will make
sure I jump after much coaxing I am sure. Anyway, no point saying this
anymore cos there won't be any him to make me jump from now onwards.
Last but not lest, I had a fun day overall. We even bought the cd with
all our pics from the whole day event at $45. Then was sent back to
mission beach whr we took our car and drove back to cairns.
Stopped at Innisfail on our way back, a really small town. Had nice
fish and chips thr. Reached cairns at abt 8pm and checked into Palm
Royale Resort. Very tired since woke up so early and having a long
day. Going to sleep soon.

Day 7

2010-03-06T10:08:00.008+08:00

Day 7: woke up at 9am after many hours of sleep. So lazy today. Went
out to get our long awaited Domino's pizza then came back to hotel to
eat. Didn't do anything till 2pm before we went to DFO (direct factory
outlets) to do some shopping.
Managed to buy some stuff, even bought something for him. Yes, I know
I shldnt but I just did.
Spent quite a bit for this whole trip. Hope it's all worth it to get
back the bubbly Joanne in the shortest possible time. Joanne will
learn how to love a person and wish he will see it in time to come.
Hope time will allow him to be touched by Joanne again. It's all hope
tat is going to get me going.

Day 3

2010-03-06T10:04:00.002+08:00

Day 3: Waited for shan at airport since 8am. She didn't come out till
about 915am. They really did a thorough check on her reason for
travelling alone to aust. They even ask her my flight when she told
them she has a cousin waiting for her at cairns already.
Then we called up the car rental and they pick us up to send us to
their office to collect our car. Hyundai Elantra. But still better
than Getz. Off we drive to the tour agents Matt (horse riding farm
owner). With only name and vague address near esplanade, we couldn't
find it at all. With no choice, we called up Matt and he offered to
come and pick us up and send us there! That is such a nice gesture!
Even if it means that he is on his way at cairns city to pick customers.
After which, he left hurriedly after showing us the shop as there are
customers in his car. We decided to drive our car over as the money we
slot to buy tix has expired. The lady in Dr. Tours is very nice and
candid when she intro tours to us. Another nice person I met along my
trip. Aust seems to have a lot nice people. We managed to book all the
tours we needed from her at a cheaper price than what we saw online
and other tour agents. Another thing settled.
When we r done and wanna check in to our hotel, realized that our car
has been summoned! We have no choice but to go to the nearest council
bldg to pay off the fine. It costs me $20!! *heartpain*
Next is checking in to our hotel. It's a small 2-storey apartment
place. Ours is on the first. Quite a homely place I would say, esp for
pple who are not so particular abt the type of hotel rooms as long as
the toilets are clean. :D and it only cost us AUD63 per nite.
Just came back from dinner. Had dinner at this pub which only cost us
$10 for a guinness pie and a glass of beer. It's considered cheap and
the food is quite nice actually. Then drove down casino and have a
look. Slot $40 into slots machine, after half hours, won back the same
amount and off we go. Haha. Back to homely hotel and getting ready to
sleep. Nitez.

Cairns 2nd day

2010-02-28T20:33:00.002+08:00

Went river swimming this morning. Water was clean but the water was too quick. I am not used to the speed and in the end, one of my slippers just slipped off and flowed away. My Havanas slippers!! Sob sob... He bought that for me when we went to Taiwan previously. Other
than this the swim was quite fun. Realized that Singaporeans are quite 'sua ku' cos even for me, I have not really seen a river (other than kallang river), let alone swim in it. It was an experience for me. Was able to use the farm's wireless and surfed net for a while. Saw from my facebook quite a few encouragement and concern msg, felt very warmth. However, these are really incomparable if I were with him. I know it's mean to say such things, but I am sure that a lot will know how I feel even if they dun agree with me. Haiz...
Anyway tonite is the last nite here. Gotten the facebook a/c from Amanda(lady whom rode with me yest). Will add her when I have Internet access. I hope that shan will not experience flight delay like me. Haha. Cos I dun wanna wait at airport too long. Oh ya, I need to buy a new pair of
slippers too! I have been wearing Amanda's today.

First day at Cairns

2010-02-28T12:56:00.001+08:00

Started the trip with a delayed flight. Haha.. Cos there is bad weather at Darwin. Passengers are not allowed to board the plane like 45-50min later than scheduled time. Thinking to myself 'am I really so bad luck?' but anyway, boarded the plane soon after they announce and off to Darwin I went for transitting of flight to cairns. Both flights were short, abt 4hrs & 3hrs respectively.
Came out of the cairns airport and saw that just the airport itself is different from what I saw in Sydney years back. There is this laidback feeling which i find relaxing. However, the weather is pretty much singapore weather. Called the 'driver' whom turned to be the owner of mount n ride (the place I m staying till meet up with shan. He asked if we could go grocery shopping before goin back to the mountains. Y not?? Haha.
Went with him to Rusty's market at cairns city which only open during the wkends to public. It's like a non airconditioned supermarket, similar to those 'flower market' I went to in Kunming. Saw one of my fav fruits thr: Mango!! They actually grow mangoes!! Went with him to butchery too. Got his supplies for our meals and we r on our way back to the mountains. Was shown whr my cabin n things ard the farm are. Afterwhich, i went back to the cabin for nap and jumpd up at 1plus. Was supposed to gather for the horse riding lesson. Anyway, I dreamt of him again. Dun rem details, just rem thr is him in it.
Just came back from activities I nvr done before: horse riding and fishing. Went for a 2hrs horse riding into rainforest, into the river (I was soaked in water to abt my waist!!), on the plains... So interesting!! They even have a troting session. It feels so carefree. The horse I rode on was named Zena. She is so clever, know when to stop, path to look out for. It's so easy riding on her. I even bought a postcard with her picture. Then went fishing. Fished in ponds whereby we have to let the fishes back into the ponds aft we caught them. Great! Cos I dum think I can eat the fishes I caught.
While fishing, chatted with the staff, Amanda, who is working while backpacking. She is a Taiwanese. The topic somehow diverted to how I just became single and how I wanna treat tis trip as a breather. Going for dinner soon. Will update on my sumptous dinner later.
Just back from my roast lamb rack with peppermint sauce, baked potato, mushroom sauce, dessert like mango and choco muffin dinner! I am soooooooo stuffed. Wish he is here with me, but I promised a friend that when I m here in aust I can't think of 'how nice if he is here with me' and 'what souvenir I have to buy for him'. I am trying my best. Really.
Anyway tmr is free n easy and I might be going to swim in the river if time permits cos everybody will be driving in to cairns city beach for a farewell party for a staff whose last day was yesterday. Looking forward to it. I am so stuffed and sleepy rite now.
Nitez everyone.

Trust??

2010-01-29T00:28:00.001+08:00

What is trust?? Not trust funds but trust as in belief in someone or something. So what really is trust??

Trust is both and emotional and logical act. Emotionally, it is where you expose your vulnerabilities to people, but believing they will not take advantage of your openness. Logically, it is where you have assessed the probabilities of gain and loss, calculating expected utility based on hard performance data, and concluded that the person in question will behave in a predictable manner. In practice, trust is a bit of both.

So when is considered breach of trust?? When the person u trust is no longer truthful to u?? Or is there some actions which is unacceptable to you that u deem as breach of trust?? For me, breach of trust is when the person i trusted the most done things which are highly unacceptable to me is what hurt most. I literally feel the heartache. But then again, friends told me its life. So what can i do with such a ‘life’?? Accept it? Change it? Or modify it?

I guess i can only learn to accept plus modify my mindset if i can do nothing to change the situation. This is what i call life sucks!!!

The new year

2010-01-06T03:08:00.001+08:00

2010 approached at such a fast rate that 2009 has gone by without me realising it. This new year comes with happy and sad news. Happy because i have found a new job, though no more lazing around. Hee hee. Good thing is i will have salary in my bank every month w/out having to worry when my savings will be dry.. hahaha

Sad because something changed in a cousin’s family. I pity the kid involved. He is such a cheerful and hyper kid, not knowing what is happening at his age. How are the parents going to face him when he grow up? Though such situations are supposed to be common nowadays, when it happened to somebody close to you, i guess its still difficult to say ‘its common’. I wish for the best of all luck for the little kid, though not sure how much luck will he be given.

The only consolation is he is still young. In time to come, wish things will turn for the better and he doesnt have to know what he don’t need to know.

Coming to end of year

2009-12-04T01:43:00.001+08:00

Year end is often a time to reflect what we had gone through the entire year. So what have i done this whole year?? And what have you done?? Anything impressive or just another boring year??

Lets see. The most impressive happening i can think of will be the number of times i have travelled this year. Been to china, vietnam, genting, taiwan and cruise on Star Virgo. Thats about all i have been to this year. Not impressive but enjoyable. :p

Another big decision i have made will be to start my degree course. Some will say ‘so old le then take up degree course’. But to me, nothing is ever too old to take up, as late is better than never, right??

Oh ya, oops. I missed out quitting my job as one of the major decisions i have made this whole year. heee. Now, getting myself a job is a main priority too. :p

Year end is also a time to plan for the new year. What do i intend next year?? First, to find a job if i havnt find it by this year. 2ndly, more travel plans!! Hee. I guess travelling is really a motivator for me in life. I will always look forward for a trip either with friends or family. The main reason maybe attributed by the size of singapore and the no. of things u can do here. The usual hangouts will be drinking, watching movies, having dinner, singing ktv, playing mahjong etc. After a while, i am starting to feel bored when having such events unless its a group gathering with friends i havnt been meeting. 3rdly, more studies to come. I should be able to graduate in 2011 is all goes well. So travel plans are to be made around the breaks in between modules. Hee. Already made plans to go Australia in Feb 2010 after i done with my spring module. :p

Wish next year will be a better year than this year. Yes, i know all people will wish for such things. Anyway, the most important thing apart from the things we have to do is to be HAPPY ALWAYS!! Always is ideal, as often as possible should be desirably attained!! I wish for happiness to bestowed to everyone i know including myself!!!! Hee.

idling, Idling & IDLING

2009-11-17T17:22:00.002+08:00

I am idling at home after my last day has been brought forward to 3rd Nov. After submitting assignment on 9th Nov, i am a free woman. Hehehe

However, I have been sick since last wednesday till now. Serious flu, cold, cough + everything else.. sob sob.. Hope i will get well fast. And i am able to go ktv and have hotpot!! ehehehe

Still looking for a job, not in any real urgency, however, do not wish to idle for too long.

Miss talking to my close colleagues, havnt been seeing them for a week. Supposed to schedule a dinner with them, but cos i was sick, still have not schedule a date yet. Will do so soon.

Alot of errands to run!! Brought doggie for grooming, then need to bring him for yearly vaccine. Didnt realise that w/out a job, i have more errands to run!! hahahaah..

Final assignments for this semester

2009-11-02T01:57:00.001+08:00

Its only final assignments for this semester. Am doing the final 2 to be submitted on 9Nov. Then i will be a free person!! Yipee!!

NO JOB + NO SCHOOL!! (at least till 23 Nov when new semester starts again) hehe

Joking with some of my jobless friends that we can start to job search in the morning then start mj in the afternoon..hahhaa.. then eventually can become ‘professional’ mj players..whahahahah

No $$ how to mj every time?? Later no $$ to pay then face also lose lor..hehehe..

Anyway, just wish that i have some ideas in doing the current assignments. Date due soon but i am still at para 1 of just one of the assignments. :(

But then again, i chose to walk this path so i must GAMBATE!!

Decision made

2009-10-27T17:08:00.001+08:00

I have finally made a decision to leave my current company. My last day will be on 11th Nov 09. Since this job is the cause of all unhappiness, then maybe leaving it will do me good??

3rd and final assignment for these 2 modules have started. Deadline is 9Nov. Trying very hard to understand what the notes are trying to convey to me. I have difficulty understanding some quite technical stuff especially air transportation. I hope that i will be able to pass these 2 assignments and WALA!! i will be able to pass these modules!! hehehehe Not getting good grades, but just managed to pass.

After 9nov, I should be able to get a good rest as there will be no job cum assignment for the time being. However, took up Maritime Economics for the spring semester which is a short semester from Nov – Jan 2010. So there will still be assignments coming along.

As for job, will try to look for one along the way. Preference given to shipping-related jobs. If really unable to find, then maybe will consider getting a part time job to tide over bad times. My main concern is the monthly car installments and petrol. Other than that, the rest are quite manageable as i can cut down on eating out and going out.

For the rest and freedom i have chosen, i wish happiness for myself!!! :)

Will miracles happen to me??

2009-10-08T13:08:00.001+08:00

Saw from my cousin’s blog:

“Miracles happen to those who believe in them.”
Bernard Berenson

True and not true to certain extent. Just believing doesn’t make miracles happen. It’s the actions done to make miracles happen. I wish i can just sit at home and wait for $$ to drop from the sky (it is a miracle!!). However, such things will never happen if you don’t work. No work = no $$.

Therefore, this sentence is questionable. However, we are not here to debate on such issues. HAHA

Recently, have been unhappy at work, felt that a lot of things are not smooth. Then again, life is never smooth sailing right?? But can i not have so much unsmooth things happening all at one time?? It sucking life from me. Now, i feel very unmotivated to go work, to do things, meet friends, shopping etc etc etc. Since when did i become like that?? Do i have a problem with coping?? That i have no answer myself.

I never thought that $$ will drop from the sky. Neither do i think that i should be rewarded without working. But can i be willful and stop working now?? I really feel very tired of such life now. I just want to rest for a while before i decide to charge again.

Men just slog their way at work the moment they stepped into working society. How many people can enjoy the luxury of resting between jobs?? Other than clearing leave from previous job and before starting the new one. I too do not have such luxury since a long time ago. Really feel like doing it now. Rest for a period then start searching. Next question: Can you afford to do so?? Cos no work = no $$, remember?? But just how much is considered enough?? For me, the most important thing is to be able to pay my monthly car instalment and petrol. If i have enough savings to tide me through the period which i rest, then i guess i can be willful w/out being a burden to anyone.

People with no LIFE!!

2009-09-16T12:34:00.001+08:00

I hate people with no life!! They can be so free that every little thing others did is a problem to them. They can be best described as the pests i hate most - 小强 - 打不完也打不死!! Hiding in one corner and peeping at every action you made, eavesdropping on your conversation if possible. To the extent of noticing what outfit you don for work everyday!!!

They are so horrible that i cant wait to use my slippers and slap them in their face like how i would like a cockroach to die…

Assignments and more assignments

2009-08-24T17:04:00.001+08:00

Just started a degree course in maritime mgt. This course has got no exams (some may think its good), but I totally disagree!!! I hate doing assignments. I rather have exams because exams you only need to read, remember and ‘vomit’ out when exam date is due. But assignment is different, a lot of research needed, reading needed, understanding of question needed, putting all that you have learnt and absorbed into a report needed, references from books needed, laptop IS A MUST!!

I am the type who can’t concentrate on doing assignment at home. So the best way is to find some cafe or macdonalds and use their wireless for info searching. Therefore, a laptop is a MUST!! But i feel tat my laptop is getting heavier..hehe.. thought of buying a new and better one. because afterall, i have 12 x 3 assignments each = 36 – 2 submitted = 34 assignments more to do!!! *fainted*

Feeling super stressed, but have to 硬着头皮 and finish this course asap. i.e. 2 years if agw. :(

Emotional waves swept through this morning…

2009-07-17T12:23:00.001+08:00

Read from forum on feelings/affection towards someone, found some of the posts very interesting, very true, yet very saddening. Saddening?? Because its every girl’s dream to find such a man.

In every relationship, the man must fight to keep the woman by his side. He has to earn her, so to speak, rather than think that he has this given entitlement to have her permanently ever since she agreed to enter a relationship with him.
I think men and women in society, in general, place too much emphasis on whichever party that initiates a break up, slandering them with connotations of unfaithfulness, insincerity, inappreciative-ness etc.

Sweet right?? But then again, how many guys in this world is able to perform like above?? Very very very very very few…. Even if there are such available, mostly were taken. (Not that it matters alot to me, just a thought)

Love is a mystery. We embrace it where we can. Mostly we do not choose whom we love. It just happens. A voice speaks to us, in ways the ear cannot hear. We recognise a beauty that the eyes does not see. We experience a change in our hearts that no voice can describe.

Don't believe in yourself, but believe in me that I believe in you – This is so motivating :)

GSS Wishlist 09

2009-06-09T11:14:00.003+08:00

a pair of shoes (need it desperately as i can nvr really buy shoes like the rest of the gers... *envy*)
dresses (been to qoosh but seems like their dresses not so nice this time)
a bag (no budget so hold on)
Iphone (someone say wana give me as bday present.. hehe)
earrings

Things aren’t always want they seem

2009-05-05T16:02:00.001+08:00

Read this from the Positive Project on Facebook. Feel that its VERY meaningful therefore want to share with all.

Two travelling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels
stay in the mansion's guest room. Instead the angels were given a small space in the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it.
When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied,
"Things aren't always what they seem."

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a very poor, but very hospitable farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had, the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night's rest. When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field. The younger angel was infuriated and asked the older angel, "How could you have let this happen?" "The first man had everything, yet you helped him," she accused. "The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die."

"Things aren't always what they seem," the older angel replied
"When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the wall so he wouldn't find it. Then last night as we slept in the farmer's bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him
the cow instead. Things aren't always what they seem.'"

Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don't turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You just might not know it until some time later...

Contributed by Fiona Jaffe

Gaming fever??

2009-04-27T11:26:00.001+08:00

Just got a DS Lite (i know it maybe obsolete as the new DSi is out already). However, didnt know this gadget is more complicated than PSP in terms of playing d/loaded games.

Had my PSP mod-ed, therefore games from online or from frens can easily be uploaded to the memory stick via USB cable. However, for DS Lite, there is no mod version. We can only buy the flash card available in market. Plus, with a micro sd card slot for the memory card then can we start to uploaded on the card to play d/loaded games or games from friends.

However, now getting used to it, and with only 1 game on hand now. I can focus on completing it before buying the flash card. :)

It’s when i started asking around abt DS Lite that i realised most of the pple ard are playing PSP instead of DS Lite. A colleague is even going to lend me his HDD with full of games to chose. Hahaha..

No time at all!!! With the new DS Lite and PSP games that i am goin to have. OMG!!!

Drinking week

2009-04-13T15:04:00.001+08:00

Visited quite a few drinking places last week (New Asia Bar, Velvet & Pump room). Wed is cos i feel like drinking, Thurs cos colleague was thr n then Fri cos of poly fren’s bday. :)

Havnt been drinking consecutively for a long long long time. Kinda missed it, yet hated it. Hahaha.. cos always not enough sleep!!! Especially when it is a working day the next day. :(

Shouldnt be drinking that much from now onwards.. Y?? cos not many pple bday!! haahahah..

Travel plans for 2009

2009-03-25T14:03:00.001+08:00

Hehe.. I love to travel… Always wanted to go here or go there… Though nvr to very far but at least it beats staying in sg all the time.

This year, was only planning to go China and one more long trip (eg. Australia). End up now i have more travel plans than expected. Yipee!!! Very happy abt it.

1) China in Jan (been and back)

2) Vietnam in May (pay deposit already.. hehee)

3) Bangkok in July (bought budget airline tix during their promo.. :p)

4) Taipei in August (also during budget airline promo)

5) If i can go one more country(other than Malaysia) from Sept – Dec, I will be a super happy person in 2009. :p

Now have to save alot harder than usual so that the above trips wont burn my wallet. Overall, i think its still ok as the air tix for Bangkok and Taipei are very cheap. It only cost me $100++ for Bangkok and $300 for Taipei which i feel is very good promo. But then again, now hotel is a problem. Hope to find good and reasonable priced hotels in both places so that my expenses wont be shooting high for tat mth… hehehe

“Departures”

2009-03-13T12:15:00.001+08:00

おくりびと – ‘Sender’. Literal meaning is a person who sees someone else off (eg. at the airport). But in this show, the sender is an occupation for sending off the dead.

You can see more at the official website.

It’s a very touching show. It reflected how people view this occupation and will touch on things we seldom/dun wan to talk about like death and funerals etc…

Also, this movie has gotten Oscar’s ‘Best Foreign Film’ award. Worth watching. :)

Stupidity can kill??

2009-03-06T18:13:00.001+08:00

Do you agree?? hehehe.. I definitely agree!!! hahahhaa

Enjoy your wkend!!! :)

Fustrations

2009-03-03T18:37:00.001+08:00

vexed and getting more vexed as days gone by. fustrated with myself for not having the knowledge i wanna have yet has no way of finding out unless u know someone in that profession, which i don't. not sure how the problem can be solved except to wait and see.

Is insecurity getting in your way???

2009-02-24T19:08:00.001+08:00

Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless.

Have anyone out there felt as per what is written above?? Do u hate urself for behaving like this yet on the other hand, cant help feeling that way??

2009-02-23T16:38:00.001+08:00

moody...Moody...MOODY...

unhappy...Unhappy...UNHAPPY...

be happy...Be Happy...BE HAPPY...

try...try...try... :(

25 Random facts about me

2009-02-17T14:47:00.002+08:00

1. I am an only child(not only daughter but only child). I dislike people who just got to know me, know that i m only child and say 'awwww, so nice. must be parents' pet.' They dunno the stress an only child has to carry.

2. I am considered an introvert. If i didnt talk to you when i first know you, pls give me time. Or better, pls come n talk to me. I need time to warm up to pple i have just known.

3. Had public caning when i was in Pri 2 cos i was caught splashing water at classmates when we were at the 'brushing teeth session' my sch implemented. I am sure most of my pri sch friends will rem. haha

4. Had short hair for the first 18yrs of my life till i was forced to let it grow long. When i was in primary six, provision shop uncle still mistook me as 'ah boy'. Sob Sob... Now with long hair, cant bear to cut it anymore.. hehe

5. I have phobia staying underwater cos i almost drowned at a pool when i was young. Supposed to take swimming lessons during Primary 3 or 4, signed up, but didnt even try going since 1st lesson.

6. I also have phobia of height too. Taking cable car, sg flyer, skyride @ Sentosa and DHL balloon will make me very nervous till i wanna go home n giving up taking the ride. But as usual, my friends wil be there to encourage me. hahaha

7. I am in contact with most primary sch frens compared to 1 or 2 secondary sch frens.

8. I have 3 best friends, of which 2 are quite sotong. Haha. You know who you are. :p

9. Most pple said that i resembles my dad than my mum. What say you?

10. I have 2 very close cousins - 1 older than me 7yrs, 1 younger by 10yrs. We are not blood related but very close.

11. I love to watch drama series. i.e. Hong Kong, Japanese, Taiwanese(some), local(some), but not really into Korean. :) My first Japanese series was Ah Shin, watched with my mum when i was still a little kid.

12. I didnt know what is or how to do cross-stitch till primary 5 or 6 when our Maths teacher, Mrs Quek taught me so.

13. I am a procrastinator. Will tend to delay doing things. I am trying to change over the years. :( I won't say there is no improvement at all, just very SLOW in changing.

14. Started learning piano when i was 5, gave up when i reached Grade 5. A pity, but cant seem to bring myself to start learning again. Love music(singing & listening to songs), just not so into playing piano.

15. I love driving. Used to drive alone to all parts of Singapore when i just got my license. Now still love to drive, but long distance only when i go into M'sia. Cos the petrol is super expensive in Singapore.

16. Dislike the idea of using phone. Be it with friends or with customers, prefer to meet up face to face. Think i have used too much phone during my pri and sec sch days. Now phobia. Haha.

17. I am taking Japanese since my poly days. However, I am still at intermediate level. Stopped on and off over the years due to other commitments, never use the language much, therefore all forgotten. So its better to start at lower level to brush up on fundamentals. Wish to take my JLPT 2 soon.....

18. I stopped eating pork for at least 6-7yrs already. Pls do not ask why. Also, i am not married to Muslim nor am Muslim.

19. I love all the cute cute stuff, especially disney related items. Be it snowglobes, figuries, cups etc etc.., i just love them all.

20. Love to read manga!! Got a bad habit of reading the manga only when the whole set has finished. Dun like to read halfway, then gotta wait a long time for the next book to come.

21. Have a doggie named Rudolph. Named him that cos when young, he had red nose, but when he grew older, his nose no longer reddish. Hahaha. Love him so much!! He is a Pomeranian, going to be 4yrs old this June.

22. I love to travel to countries i nvr been to. However, i get motion sickness easily, so any country more than 8hrs is a little difficult for me. :(

23. Started clubbing at 18yrs old. Went non-stop for 10yrs. Haha.. Still love to drink now, but seldom at clubs anymore. Now is more of chill out n relax places. Or at least ktv pubs whr me n my friends can sing and drink at the same time. :)

24. Quite a forgetful and 'sotong' person. Tend to forget some details along the way. But there are distinctive memories that i will always remember. :p

25. Still in contact with my group of classmates who took Japanese with me many years ago. But most stopped. Hope to meet up sooner than just once a year. :(

Lousy handphone!!

2009-02-16T14:21:00.001+08:00

Upgraded my handphone last April. Decided to change to Nokia 6550. Realized its a wrong choice. :(

I was using it one day, in the midst of keying a SMS, and off it went and the hp was off and died. The next moment i realised i cant on it anymore. OMG!! I realised my 200++ existing SMS + ALL my contacts gone!!! Sob Sob... :(

Brought it to Nokia Care Center for servicing. Phone done, but have not collected it yet. Going to check out the trade-in value for this phone and going to get rid of it soonest!!! Arrrggghhh!!!

Anyway, got myself a new phone.. hehehe.. A Sony Ericsson W595. Hope this phone wont give me problem till the time i can upgrade my contract. :p

Finally back in Singapore!!

2009-02-04T15:26:00.002+08:00

Yipee!! I am finally back in Singapore after being stucked in China for extra 4 days. Everyday in China was cold, colder n colder. The higher we went, the colder it gets. Coldest went to abt -10 degrees!!

Never had i felt so good to be back in Singapore after all the trips i ever had except this one. Hahaha.. But nvrtheless, scenery was nice, food slightly too oily n salty, pple = no comments and weather too cold!!! hahaha

Happy Niu Year to all once again!! :)

Happy Niu Year in Advance!!!

2009-01-21T17:38:00.001+08:00

people, i wont be around from 22-28th Jan. So would like to wish you HAPPY NEW YEAR & GONG XI FA CAI in advance!!!

meet up soon when i m back. :) provided i have not become a block of ice left in China. hahahaha

新年快乐!!! 万事如意!!!

Preparation for China Trip

2009-01-13T18:57:00.001+08:00

oh no!!! I havnt even start packing a single stuff yet!!! hahahaha

at least i know i will be borrowing a jacket from fren this saturday. Things to bring?? Not sure.... Only know that i super scared of coldness, so must bring thick jackets or shld i jus buy long johns??

Looking at the Yahoo weather page almost daily to be updated of the temperature there. Now still fluctuating between 3-15 degrees. Eh, for me, thats quite cold already... :(

Gambate!! Will start packing this wkend!! :p

2009 - A bad year??

2009-01-08T11:15:00.001+08:00

I hope not. Mum told me that this coming year Goat will 犯太岁, i was quite sian already. It means luck in many ways will not be good. I supposed that will incl. meeting some 小人 along the way... :(

But the thing is, its not even CNY yet and i am meeting 小人s already. :(

Bad bad bad.........

With the economy downturn, everyone spending lesser to save up, everywhere else looks gloomy, i still have to handle 小人??!!

Pls spare me from their clutches soonest i hope.............

Near accident....Just before 2008 ends....

2008-12-31T02:10:00.003+08:00

Nearly got myself into an accident while travelling on the PIE just now. A STUPID NEW VIOS jus cut into my lane when i am just next to him and i have to stepped hard on my brake!!! I honked him NON STOP!!!
Is he blind?? Does he even know how to drive the stupid car?? I am so pissed that i high beamed him all the way and stare at him when i passed him. As usual, young punk trying to be funny after getting their license. Haiz. Kids nowadays.. *tsk* *tsk* *tsk*....

Why cant the people learn how to drive properly and smartly??

Anyway last day of 2008 and i should be thankful for all the good things i have gotten and pple whom i have met. I should also be thankful for the people who has caused me unhappiness how lucky i am to have great friends and family around me. To show them that no matter how much they wan me to unhappy, i WONT be!!

To all the good people out there, thank you for everything in 2008 and wish all of you a good year ahead (esp with the financial downturn). Hope 2009 will be a better year!!! :)

Get to know Joanne better??

2008-12-28T03:04:00.001+08:00

Got this from my cousin's blog and decided to do the quiz myself. The results as below:-

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Amazing!!! Most of the things mentioned are quite true!! ahhahaha

Pls do it yourself and see if its really that accurate. :)

Taken for granted yet again

2008-12-23T18:14:00.003+08:00

I do realise that not only people close to you will take you for granted, people you work with will take you for granted excessively too. Maybe some will think that i am a petty, calculative person, some may think differently. Whatever it is, i realised that no matter how good natured you are, you will bound to meet some who are not. Many are just wolves in sheep's clothings. *Sighing*

I do not wish to talk much about this incident as it involved a current working colleague. I can only say that this incident will only further deters me from being nice and tolerant towards others in future. Though many times i told myself that only minority of the human race are bad, evil people, however, nowadays the people i met are somehow bad and evil. How can i bring myself to be still nice towards them knowing that somehow someone will stab me somewhr sometime. This is getting quite depressing especially its a person i used to like. I was quite affected over this incident and since then, i have decided to just finished what i am supposed to do and will never want to have any crossed paths with this colleague anymore.

There is a saying in chinese that says: 好心没好报。

做人真的很累，尤其是吃力不讨好的事。做了还要给人批评的一文不值，那又何必花那么多心思呢?

Free Osim sona pillow worth $188

2008-12-18T10:34:00.001+08:00

Yipee!! Dunno when is the last time i ever won in a lucky draw. Anyway this is not really a lucky draw.. but rather a lucky pick from the many 'wishes' hanging on a xmas tree at Vivocity.

When i opened the wish i picked, its written 'Free Sona Pillow worth $188' on it.

Terms & Conditions:

1) To be collected at Vivocity Osim

2) To be collected before 31 Dec 08.

blah blah blah.... But nothing on any purchases etc?? I was puzzled, because there is nothing as free on earth.. hahaha.. Pardon me for being crude, its just that i have seldom win any prizes at all that makes this unbelievable. (i know i know, its just a pillow i won, no big deal) hahaha.. but to me its still a big deal.

Went to Osim to collect the prize a few days later and the sales assistant really just took my 'wish' card, ask me to sign on an acknowledgment form that its free and thats it!!! Passed me the pillow and its mine!! hahahaha..

Sounds magical. But anyway i would like to thank Osim for the free gift (my early xmas present). Hope that everyone will have a merry xmas and happy new year. :)

Concerts, concerts & countdowns!!

2008-12-08T14:35:00.005+08:00

Yes, i am spending a bomb on concerts again!! After going to quite a few concerts last year (Ah Mei, Sammi Cheng, Jacky Chueng etc), this year I went and am going to about 2 or more (Jay Chou, Andy Lau). Other than these, i have bought my mum the Liza Wang concert tix as her xmas present. :( Wanna cry out loud!! I am soooooooo broke now!!!

And here i am going to sistic website booking the year end countdown party tix!! Oh god.. my money have all gone to sistic!!

Anyway, enough of complaining.. hehe.. just wanna be happy while i still can at the price still affordable to me (next few mths to eat bread and drink water only.....). hahaha

Andy Lau's concert (12.12.08)

Concert seating plan

Liza Wang concert for mum (21.02.09)

Concert seating plan

Lastly, i will be goin to the floating platform to watch the fireworks on 31.12.08 and countdown to 2009!!

Countdown @ Marina

That about it!! No more $$ to go concerts anymore.. unless i am able to get free tix or win some contests to these.. hahaha...

Wish all a merry xmas and a happy new year in case i didnt have time to blog till 2009... :)

Animation Nation 2008

2008-11-20T19:06:00.001+08:00

1) The Piano Forest (Piano no mori)

Official website

2) Freedom Project

Official website

English website - managed to find an english website so should be easy.

Was requested by a friend to write my own review on above anime. Cant think of any. haha.. so got my friend who went with me to write the review for me.. hehe..

Reviews:-

Piano Forest - brings the audience into a world of classical music and piano. With a seemingly light- hearted setting, punctuated with hilarious characters, it carries a lesson of friendship and the hard work required for pursuing your passion in life.

Freedom Project - was a very well balanced story between fast paced action and conveying the spirit of freedom and through the characters. It almost surprising to think what started out as a promotional project for Nissin Cup Noodles could be so cutting edge.

Avenue Q - The Musical

2008-11-18T18:48:00.001+08:00

is very nice!!!!!!!!

Songs i like:

1) It sucks to be me!!

2) Everyone's a Little Bit Racist

3) The Internet Is for Porn and many more...hehehe...

I even bought an ave q tee for sale at a booth outside the theatre by newurbanmale. :)

Scary incident @ 'Mono'

2008-11-17T20:41:00.002+08:00

Been to Mono(KTV above Dragonfly) for a few times, this time was the scariest. Scared the hell out of me. Went there for a fren's bday. Heard another fren told me abt his fren ever fell down the spiral staircase at Mono after goin to ladies on 3rd flr. Didnt pay much attention to it as I have been thr a few times n nothing has happened (so far...)...

After quite a few drinks, sitting chatting and waiting for our turns to sing songs, we heard a commotion near the stairs. Someone was shouting tat a ger has tripped and fell and knocked her head against the side table near it. OMG!! Someone actually jus tripped and fell and when i walked over i saw blood. Then i knew she is the bday ger's fren. She looked like she was drunk yet concussed after the knock on her head. Heard the ambulance came and we looked down, saw she was carried onto the stretcher and on her way to hospital.

Poor bday ger. she had such a shock. As she had quite a few drinks oreadi, she took sometime to realise wat was happening ard her.. then suddenly the truth hits and she panicked. One of our fren sent her to hospital. Heard on the next day that her fren was fine and was discharged. Hope everything was fine despite the incident.

TO BDAY GER: Wish you a happy birthday nonetheless and hope you like the present we bought!!! :)

Wedding dinner on 11.11.08

2008-11-14T14:29:00.001+08:00

Wedding huh?? wow.. such a long time since i last attended a wedding dinner.. i guess its like since last July. omg.. tat long ah??

anyway went to fren's wedding dinner @ Grand Plaza @ City Hall on 11.11.08. Was late cos at office waiting for eileen. left office only when she left hse.. end up due to jam, i was later than her..hahahaha..

overall quite quiet, not the 'make groom super drunk' type of wedding..haha.. face was red but i think he is still ok.. dishes not bad.. only 8 of us @ the table so all get to eat more.. but think the dessert is not nice.. :(

dinner ends at 1045pm.. me n eileen cant bear to go hme..haha.. long time no see n no talk liao..haha.. sat @ the lobby sofa and chat til 12mn.. finally hav to go cos her hubby sms her.. n bb waiting at hme..

hope to mit up soon..hehehe...

KL - here i come again!!

2008-11-05T16:41:00.003+08:00

yipee!! goin msia tis wkend again. tis time is a family day cum treasure hunt organised by my company. 4 in a car makes up a team to go treasure hunting from KL all the way to PD. hehe.. about 130km long of journey.

be goin up on fri noon time.. not sure what time wil i be back on sunday though... hehe..

wish myself good luck and win their first prize back..hehe.. RM1,500 / team!!

Back to Singapore!!

2008-10-30T15:09:00.003+08:00

i was back to sin on 28th Oct after a LONG drive. but overall the trip was quite fun. wat i really did was eat and sleep and walk ard and laze ard..hahaha

Langkawi - raining, no sun tanning, ate and drink at irish pub, went shopping at their 'biggest' shopping mall which is not even as big as our harbourfront ctr, drove ard with rented car. However, the resort was nice!! Each chalet is evenly spaced out and they even have suites on water (but of cos too ex for us haha). From lobby to anywhr in the resort we have to take a tram-like car. Feels like goin to the zoo when in that tram..hahha..

KL - Drove 4-5hrs and was quite lost in KL city itself. haiz.. plus the hotel i stayed was a new one, so its not even stated in any of the msian maps.
Tried maggi goreng at Jln P. Ramli after a drinking session at 'The Beach Bar'. Went to Bangsar for a drink the next day too.

Genting - The up and downhill was making me so giddy i almost vomitted. :(
All rooms were fully booked due to PH. luckily we booked before we go. casinos and arcades (n everywhr else) so packed with pple. almost suffocated...haha..
went to play jackpot after midnite(lesser pple).. won the 1st day but lost on the 2nd day. haaha.. expected.....

Malacca - on the way back to sin, stopped by for chicken rice balls... quite nice n cheap!!!

Then drove another 2hrs back to sin on average abt 150-160km/hrs.. hehehe...

cant wait to go on another trip!!! yipee!!! :)

Msia road trip!!

2008-10-21T14:40:00.005+08:00

excited!! going on road trip (though its jus to different parts of msia).. still excited.. hehe.. cos its driving on our own and will be stopping by quite a few places(if time permits)...hehe..

Schedule of trip:-

2 days langkawi
check out and passby Ipoh for food
drive down to KL and check in
2 days KL
check out and drive up to Genting
2 days at Genting
check out and drive down to Malacca for food
HOME SWEET HOME!!

I should be back in Singapore on 28th Oct evening time.. :) Will update then.. tata..everyone have a good wk ahead.. :)

Mahjong wkend

2008-10-17T17:41:00.004+08:00

goin to play mahjong with JR's frens tonite.. then tmr as usual will be with my parents..haha..
*counting counting* i have been playing mahjong with my parents almost every saturdays for like 4ever!! hahaah.. we dun have such habits last time.. but recently..hahaha.. *tsk tsk tsk* not good ah.. always lose $$ to mum n dad lor.. :(
become poorer for no reason..haha..
anyway tmr will work hard and win their $$ whhahahahaha.. *evil grin*

LOTSA LUCK!!

pain, paiN, paIN, PAIN!!!

2008-10-15T15:48:00.005+08:00

its so painful!! went to crew room yesterday and kana stepped on foot by a stiletto heel!! that lady was even skinnier than me and oreadi my foot had a big patch of blue black!! i really can't imagine if the person is bigger in size.. OMG!!
now i need to walk like a 'bai ka'.. and its more painful than yesterday...
i even had nitemare abt my foot got so swollen that blood is splurging out.. and needs to be chopped off..hahaha.. come to think of it sounds comical..haha...

人缘

2008-10-10T16:35:00.005+08:00

What is 人缘??

It goes beyond merely having good people skills, it conveys a sense of having a knack for dealing with all people as if brought to them by destiny.

did a short quiz to test my 人缘... end up not very favouring.. tis is the results i got:
你的人缘不怎么好，你和朋友们的关系不牢固，时好时坏，经常处于一种起伏波动的状态中，这就表明，一方面你确实想让别人喜欢你，想多交一些朋友，尽管你作出很大努力，但是别人并不一定喜欢你，朋友跟你在一起可能不会感到轻松愉快。你只有认真坚持自己的言行，虚心听取那些逆耳忠言，真诚对待朋友，学会正确地待人接物，你的处境才会改变。

am i really that bad?? any frens reading this blog pls comments.. haha..
sometimes i tot i was ok, be it towards frens, colleagues, family etc.. but thr r jus times whr i wil be fustrated with no particular reason and wil snap at pple ard me esp family..
is this a mood swing?? any way i cant improve on this?? even writing tis blog now is making my morale kinda down.. always feeling bored, aimless, nothing to look forward to..
I wana stop feeling this way!!!! Help needed... :(

Emotions

2008-10-07T12:20:00.004+08:00

Unhappy yet have to act happy??

Happy yet cant express??

Have you ever come across such situations?? You bet i have...... I probably think that the actual roller coaster is not as adrenaline rushing as the emotional roller coaster is. Try Monday unhappy, then tues morning happy, afternoon til nite unhappy etc etc etc... The emotions drained u physically and mentally... So now you are tired mentally n physically... u go to zzzz... guess what?? you have dreams!!! They prevent you from resting well... to top it up.. you have nitemares... more emotional drainage thus affecting physical... did you notice?? tis is jus a cycle... which will go on and on and on and....... so how to reverse the effect or at least break the cycle?? the worst thing is I DONT KNOW!!!! so pls help!! not sure wat i can do to have lesser dreams, be less emotionally affected by things ard me.. etc etc etc....

Self pity

2008-01-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

Saw this in internet and tot of sharing it with you.

Self Pity

Elizabeth Elliott once said, "Self-pity is a death that has no resurrection, a sinkhole from which no rescuing hand can drag you because you have chosen to sink."

People who regularly engage in self-pity usually have a very narrow perspective of the world. They often look at their lives and only see the failures, the disappointments, and the inadequacies. They're unlikely to find satisfaction at work, and their relationships feel bland because they're so focused on the negatives.

Now it's important that we do not confuse self-pity with depression. People do go through periods in life when their emotional state goes into upheaval because of some personal crisis. We should be sensitive to such cases and not brush them off as "whiners" or "self-pitiers".

The kind of self-pity I'm referring to is usually uncalled for, and intentionally sustained over a long period of time with little or no desire to truly make things better. Things are usually not that bad for these people; they have plenty of things to be grateful for, but they simply choose not to appreciate them.These people are usually miserable and make others miserable too by constantly pointing out what's wrong in their lives. They never seem to listen when we point out what's good and right in their lives; how the positive out-balances the negative. They don't want to acknowledge this because then they'd have no reason to feel bad for themselves.

The person who engages in self-pity is looking for sympathy, and it's usually in that sympathy that they hope to find some relief. It too quickly becomes an addiction, a quick fix they have to take again and again in order to limp from day to day. As someone once said, "Self-pity is one of the most unhappy and consuming defects that we know.

It is a bar to all spiritual progress and can cut off all effective communication with our fellows because of its inordinate demands for attention and sympathy. It is a maudlin form of martyrdom, which we can ill afford."We all engage in self-pity to some degree. But we should not let it become a habit. When you catch yourself doing it, check yourself.

Are things really that bad? Is there something constructive you can do to make things better? What about the aspects of your life you can be thankful for?

Contributed by Eugene Loh, Slice of Life

Start taking a moment each day to spend a little time with yourself by embracing a moment with yourself by thanking yourself sincerely for being alive, being here in the present so that you can appreciate the beauty of life.

Look into the mirror and say "thank you", and show your deep appreciation.

Feel the emotional shift inside you. :)

Jay Chou's concert 19.01.08

2008-01-23T01:16:00.001+08:00

Concert again!! Haha, I had been goin to concerts so frequent for the past whole year. S.H.E, Jacky Cheung, Sammi Cheng, Ah Mei and finally the most awaited for, Jay Chou's(cos nvr been to his).

Reached there abt 6pm and saw quite many cars reaching too. Comparable to Jacky Chueng's concert as most pple who attended his concert are executives. But Jay's concert??!! Mostly zoom zoom cars..hahaa.. So excited looking at cars passing by me while i sit in my car waiting for Jess to arrive..hehe

Had dinner at the mushroom hotpot and left abt 8pm. Met up with my bro and the rest of his gang. Saw a super long queue but didnt wats that for.. Eager to go inside the stadium to help my fren buy the Jay's merchandise. Had never buy any concert merchandise before, abit mountain turtle...haha..

Then got to know the super LONG queue was meant for the merchandise!! OMG!! Cant believe it..haha.. managed to get a brochure of the merchandise available.. most of the items were sold out!!! Esp the jackets!! Selling at SGD65 each and were all sold out!! B4 we went into the stadium, saw this cute figurine and took a pic of it.. hehe..

Everything there that day was all abt queuing up..haha.. even toilets were longer queue than most of the concerts we attended. Drinks queue too!!

Finally the concert started with charming Jay coming out!! So excited!! Only at the 1st song and all the audiences sitting at the PB areas are standing up!! They stood thru out the whole concert!! So onz.. How i wish i get a seat thr too!! haha..

We had our light sticks & whistles (sponsored by my bro) and we waved thru out too.. haha.. The little minus point abt tis concert is Jay's voice that day. I guessed he sang too much on the 1st day (his actual bday) and plus his flu not fully recovered, he didnt sort of perform to his best standard on the 2nd day of concert. However, all the audiences were very supportive of him and sang with him, shouted encouraging words to him when possible thru out.

Overall, this is the concert i wanted to attend the most and yet didnt disappoint me at all. It would've been the best if his performance is his norm... haha.. but since he is sick.. wat can i say?? hehehe.. still hoping for him to come n hav concert soon(prob next yr according to him)..hehe..

I LOVE YOU JAY!!! :)

Luck in 2008

2008-01-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

Below is my luck for 2008. Sounds good.. hopefully my luck tis yr will be better.. haiz.. cos seems to be unlucky dunno like since forever...ahhaha..

General

This is a fantastic year for those who are born in the year of the Goat. This is the time to implement your plans and to reap the fruits of labor that you have sowed. You will get the support and assistance from the relevant people easily. Though your luck is generally extremely good this year, remember to stay humble and always have contingency plans because there are many sudden crises too. Do not let arrogance get in your way. There are signs of legal problems this year too. Hence, avoid any illegal activities. Though you will be able to cope with the obstacles that arise this year, do not attempt to push your luck. Do tread with caution too.

Career

Your career luck is very good. This is a good time to shine at work. You will get support from your authority figures such as your boss or the management. If you are in business, you will get the support of your clients and your business will do very well this year. Remember that while you prosper, always make contingency plans and expand conservatively. This year, there tends to be sudden incidents that may cause problems. You do not want to be caught off guard by it.

Wealth

This is a good year in terms of wealth. If you are investing, choose something that will grow steadily. If you are in business, allow your business to grow gradually. Do not rush into things. How good you are at conserving your wealth also depends on how well you are able to avoid legal situations.

Relationship

There might be more quarrels or disputes between those who are already in relationships, as there will more frustration this year due to stress. Be more patient and it is more important to communicate. It is much more difficult than in previous years for those who are single to find the right partner. For those who are single there will be more concern about the stress caused by other aspects of life.

Health

Be careful of illnesses that strike suddenly, for example, heart attacks and strokes. You are more accident prone than usual. Do not engage in any high-risk activities. This year, it is important to follow traffic rules carefully and not to exchange conveniences with regrets. If you are driving, ensure that you have adequate rest.

People

There are more betrayals or back-stabbings this year. Some people may be jealous of your success and decide to make life difficult for you. Do be aware of this and remain humble and polite.

Retro themed D&D

2008-01-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

Howdy!! Attended my co's d&d at Pan Pacific Hotel on 11 Jan 08. Had a great time!! Laugh so hard that my jaws were so sore.. haha..

The emcee from the entertainment co was so funny.. just cant stop laughing..

arrived there abt 7pm

saw many pple oreadi thr

mingle ard at the cocktail area waiting for ballroom to open (eh.. sounds abit like wedding dinner..hehe)

took pics with pple in outrageous outfit...haha

cant even recognise some colleagues tat day due to the outfit they are in!!

finally dinner started at 830pm

CEO giving out long service award, with the longest of 30yrs of service!!

Played games

best outfit award for man & woman

lucky draw (nvr even got any prize out of the 40 prizes available sob sob..

Finally, the dinner ended at a late 1130pm. As no one is interested to do any retro dancing, therefore, i went back after tat... hahaha..

Overall a great nite and thanks to the committee members who put in alot of effort to make tis happened!!

THANK YOU!! :)

p/s: last but not lest, a video on the teachings of retro dancing.. hehe...

Getting sick @ start of a new year :(

2008-01-11T11:36:00.000+08:00

Flu! Flu! Flu!

Everywhr i go, I will bound to hear someone is down with flu. N this super killer flu is making everyone sick for weeks and not recover fully.

I was down with fever since last Wednesday till Sunday.. since sore throat not well yet, now even my lymph node is infected. My right side of neck was swollen and painful from yesterday. Can't really sleep well at nite as turning n tossing in bed will make my neck very uncomfy.

Man, this is the worse sore throat i ever had. N its so bad tat it infected other parts too!!

The worst thing is, Ken is not in town!! I am home alone!! Sob sob!! :(

N today supposed to go for D&D, I am still deciding if i should go. haha..

Okok.. enough complaining.. wish all a Happy Friday and enjoy ur wkend!! :)

Saying goodbye to 2007

2007-12-26T09:47:00.002+08:00

As you all know, we always sing Auld Lang Syne during farewell. So now i shall dedicate this to saying goodbye to 2007 and thus welcoming 2008..

Should old acquaintance be forgot,and never brought to mind ?
Should old acquaintance be forgot,and auld lang syne ?

CHORUS:
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

Sounds familiar rite.. hehe.. Looking back at 2007, many things (good n bad) happened.. shall not say much about them now.. and all i want to do now is look foward to 2008 and hope all the good things can happen then.

so now i shld start to think of new yr resolution already!! haha.. but hor, everytime think n say but nvr do one..haha..

but watever it is, all the best to everyone out thr n happy new year!!!

Xmas Gatherings 2007

2007-12-26T09:47:00.001+08:00

Havnt got time to update on this blog.. hehe.. I know.. hehe.. Oreadi 2008 le.. i still trying to write a 2007 blog.. hehe.. but who cares..hehehe.. :p

The most common topic.. XMAS GATHERINGS!!! yes, i have had quite a few xmas gatherings for this year as usual. shall go thru them one by one..

1) Gathering with the Japanese class frens on 15.12.07

Had dinner at Kuriya Dining at Raffles City Shopping centre. Was late that day, they had started eating w/out me.. sob sob.. :( But luckily, I am not the latest..haha.. Cecilia came latest and just when she about to start eating, we eagerly opened our presents and were almost crazy trying to take pics with everyone. Gotten myself the most presents here (cos we gave everyone one present instead of one gift for exchange). Lovely presents, esp Wendy's, cos they are all disney stuff!!! Cecilia's Eyptian present was unique and fragile!! Joseline's present practical and good for skin. Last but not lest, Shihan's present good for hugging.. hehe.. Had a very good time n made so much noise in a all-quiet restaurant!! hahhaha...

My pinky presents and 5 of us.

2) Gathering with SIM classmates on 22.12.07

Long decided to meet up with them and place confirmed to be at Grand Hyatt Straits Kitchen for buffet. Roughly about 12 of us (incl. classmates' bf) turned up that day!! Achievement!!! hahaha..

Jane even brought her baby girl, Gean. A tiny 1yr old princess who is so energetic from the time i met her till go hme time.. Wan pple to play with her yet act shy..haha.. after a while started to attract attention and want us to carry her around.. she is so facsinated with the food around us, the people at the restaurant and the presents we had... She even did the gift exchange draw for all of us.. Had a great time though the food is kinda disappointing.. but of cos the pple matters more than the food..hehe

Food we had, Baby Gean and all of us!!

3) Gathering with GAC colleagues on 24.12.07

This is a super mini gathering at Koey's house. Only 4 of us plus little Ezann. The rest either not free or not in town.. haiz.. so only me, Jessie, Jeffrey and Koey. As Koey cant leave house(needs to take care of baby), she decided to have the gift exchange at her house + she cook dinner for us!! Yipee!! Home cooked food..hehehe...

After which, we played with Ezann, talked about maple(yes, tat maple story game) etc.. Then was told tat we have a 4th leg for mahjong.. haha.. end up we played 1 round and ended ard 1plus (yes, xmas liao).. haha.. countdown at the mj table!! hahaha.. lost $10 somemore..haha

Cutie little Ezann

4) Gathering at my house on 25.12.07

Ken invited a few colleagues to our house for steamboat. My frens also suggest mj at my place. This is sort of a last min decision therefore we are so frantic tat we cant finish packing up our messy house before Xmas!! hahaha.. I made effort to do a little re-decoration and tidy-up for my disney room. And so we had our groups of frens, one side steamboat, one side mj..haha.. After our share of mj, around evening time, we have steamboat too! Quite a cosy little group as we are so familiar with each other oreadi.. We have Jessica, Zhiheng, Huifang, Raymond and of cos baby Kavenn.. We eat, play mj, gossip, chit chat almost like from 2pm till 8pm.. hahaha.. enjoyed myself!!

Mit happy-go-lucky Kavenn boy!!

Taken with Ken and his colleagues.

I guess I had almost the same group of xmas gathering as last yr, however, felt that this year's xmas is more enjoyable. Probably cos only one gathering out of all is at my house!! hahahahaha.. no stress on packing house, tidy house after everyone left, make sure house is presentable before next gathering is due etc... all in all merry xmas and a happy new year.

Hope all will be well in 2008!!!

Tata